*content warning: sexual violence* 

*advertencia de contenido: violencia sexual* 
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todas las propuestas fueron subidas a esta página web con el consentimiento escrito de lxs participantes. varias otras propuestas han sido compartidas en espacios fuera de línea.
too drunk to consent?

what is consent

did he know i was too drunk to consent
i know he knows i was too drunk to consent

how many shots before its rape

what if he had a glass of wine too

i think i had 7 shots is that enough to be rape

if i don’t remember is it rape

if he knows i dont remember but we both laugh in the morning is it rape
if i hand him his phone and kiss him goodbye the next day is it rape

i was making out with another boy in the hallway while he waited in my bed is it still rape

am i too promiscuous

can sluts be raped

i always say yes but this time i was too drunk to even get the word out is it rape

"I shaved my head because he said he liked the way my long hair felt in his hands. I shaved my head to look more queer, in the hopes of having to fearfully reject less men. I shaved my head because it was something I could control when everything else made me feel like I was losing my mind, my self, and my presence as a person."

- By Bryse
"Me afeité la cabeza porque él dijo que le gustaba como se sentía mi pelo largo en sus manos. Me afeité la cabeza para verme mas queer, con las esperanzas de tener que rechazar (con miedo) a menos hombres. Me afeité la cabeza porque era algo que yo podía controlar cuando todo lo demás me hizo sentir como si iba a perder mi mente, a mí misma, y a mi presencia como persona." 

- Por Bryse ​
- Anonymous 
- Anónimo
- Anonymous 
- Anónimo
Him: "You drink too much?"

Me: "I need to sober up."

He then proceeds to have sex with me even as I'm crying and telling him I need to sober up. I don't remember what happened after that. Many times before this night he'd told me that one day my drinking habits might get me into trouble.

- By Ophelia Scott
Él: "Tomas mucho?" 

Yo: "Necesito quitarme la borrachera."

Luego él procede a tener sexo conmigo incluso mientras estoy llorando y diciéndole que necesito quitarme la borrachera. No me acuerdo qué pasó después de eso. Muchas veces antes de esta noche él me había dicho que algún día mis hábitos con el alcohol podrán meterme en problemas.

- Por Ophelia Scott
When I was in high school, a close friend of mine assaulted me in a bank vault. Before he did, he told me that I belonged to him and destroyed the reality I thought I lived in. Five months later when I told my principal what happened, she told me that the world was mine.

For survivors: Always remember that "The world is yours."
 
By Ophelia Scott 
Cuando estaba en la secundaria, un amigo cercano a mí me asaltó en una bóveda de banco. Antes de asaltarme, me dijo que yo pertenecía a él y destruyo la realidad en la que pensé que vivía. Cinco meses después le dije a la rectora lo que paso, me dijo que el mundo era mío. 

Para lxs sobrevivientes: Siempre recuerden que "El mundo es suyo." 

Por Ophelia Scott
It took a year before I told anyone what had happened. I didn't want to think about it or admit that my silence around what I had experienced was affecting my health and my relationships. I knew I had been raped but admitting it made me feel weak. As a woman, I've thought about rape and I had it in my mind that I would fight mercilessly, but when it was happening I froze. He became forceful and I pushed his hand away and said no firmly but the moment I realized I might not be able to fight him I froze. I could hear friends in the other room but I couldn't yell, it wasn't until one friend knocked on the door that he stopped, got up and told me he really liked me. I had no emotion. I just got up, pulled my dress back down over my hips and left the room. A year later on the exact date I was raped I woke up crying uncontrollably and knew I had to talk about it. Breaking the silence was when I began the healing process.

- By Lauren 

"It will be fun, relax" 

​- By Sadie Higgins
"Será divertido, relájate"

- Por Sadie Higgins
In self-defense classes, the first thing they teach you is the importance of using your voice. They make you practice yelling "stay back" and "no" as loud as possible over and over again. 

But when a man -much taller and physically stronger than you- suddenly is on top of you and pulling you down as you try to escape, you don't have your voice.
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You freeze. In silence.
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- By Ely Wright
En clases de auto-defensa, lo primero que te enseñan es la importancia de usar tu voz. Te hacen practicar el gritar "aléjate" y "no" lo más alto posible una y otra vez. 

Pero cuando un hombre -mucho más alto y físicamente fuerte que tú- de repente está encima tuyo y jalándote hacia abajo mientras intentas escapar, no tiene tu voz. 

Te congelas. En silencio. 

- Por Ely Wright 
"He assaulted me and then told me that he wanted to get to know me. But shouldn't he know me because he took my self away?"
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​- By Kaylie Vezina 
"Me atacó y luego me dijo que quería llegar a conocerme. Pero no debería ya conocerme porque me quitó mi identidad?" 

- Por Kaylie Vezina
My scars aren't visible. They are in the shape of hand prints. Hand prints which always remind me, every day of my life, that my lower back is no longer mine. He has marked it now.
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- By Aya Razzaz

Mis cicatrices no son visibles. Están en la forma de huellas de mano. Huellas de mano que siempre me hacen acuerdo, todos los días de mi vida, que la parte de abajo de mi espalda ya no es mía. Él la ha marcado ahora. 

- Por Aya Razzaz 
"only sluts roll their skirt"
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​- Anonymous 

"solamente las putas se enrollan la falda" 

- Anónimo 
Can't find words for this. Can you?

- By Ely Wright
No puedo encontrar palabras para esto. Y tú? 

- Por Ely Wright
Diary Entry 7/27/15: "I woke up without pants. I want to cry and throw up. I don't even know the kids name. At what point is sexual assault rape? I really think I tried to stop it. But what do I do?”
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- By Sadie Higgins
Diario 27 de julio, 2015: "Me desperté sin pantalones. Quiero llorar y vomitar. Ni si quiera sé su nombre. A qué punto un asalto sexual se vuelve violación? Realmente pensé que intenté pararlo. Pero qué hago? 

- Por Sadie Higgins 
"I was raped in my own bed. I couldn't sleep here until I bought all new bedding and changed the entire orientation of my room."
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- By Sadie Higgins
"Fui violada en mi propia cama. No pude dormir aquí hasta que traje ropa de cama nueva y cambié la orientación de mi cuarto por completo." 


- Por Sadie Higgins 
"Things that make me feel unsafe: putting my drink down."
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- By Sadie Higgins

"Cosas que me hacen sentir insegura: poner mi bebida en la mesa." 

​- Por Sadie Higgins
Two friends. A boy and a girl. Sixteen, at most. A birthday party sleep over. The room is filled with people, but everyone's sleeping. The girl included. The boy isn't. They're on opposite sides of the bed. He's sprawled. She's tucked into a ball.
"He drove me home afterwards and made me kiss him goodnight."
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- By Sara Kelly 
"Me llevó a casa después y me hizo darle besos de buenas noches."  

- Por Sara Kelly

My safest space. A cave made for me by my loved ones. A space perfectly designed as my hideout. He could never get to me there. Being there, I can feel how lucky I am to have the support that I have. To have parents that I know want to protect me with every cell in their bodies. There, is my safest place.

- By Aya Razzaz 

4:44

Most days It is background static. Some nights I need to cut deep into my skin to make It go away.

- By M.A. 
Where it happened. 

- By Ely Wright
El lugar donde pasó.

​- Por Ely Wright